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A Year Ago v2
A year ago today I came back from my trip to the United States. It was both the happiest and saddest time of my life. I recall coming back to my apartment from the airport; it felt so empty and I felt so unfulfilled.
A year later I got a whiff of that feeling again. It must be because its winter around here. It always makes me nostalgic.
How I hate winter.
So here I' am a year later; my pay has been doubled, I'm more settled into my apartment, things are going great at work and on a social front. Except it all still feels off. No matter how much I go out or keep myself busy with it all feels like it doesn't really matter to me.
You see, there is a part of my life that's been lingering perhaps what some may say too long. Although its doesn't really affect my daily life, it does seem to never conclude to anything. So here I' am sometimes wondering if I should press “Continue” or “Game Over” as if a part of my life was a video game. Two simple choices to an indefinitely difficult situation for me. Deal with it for another year hoping for another “high” or give up on something that so much time and effort was put into; something that I personally really care for.
You all may think its better to just to start anew, but its not that easy for me. If I just cut it off like that, would everything that happened mean nothing? What was it all for?
People tell me that “game” isn't worth my time or money, if we are going to use metaphors. However my optimistic look on life tells me it is, even though my realistic view tells me they are right.
Hold on to what you believe in or let go of things that may never be?
Continue or Game Over?
A year later I got a whiff of that feeling again. It must be because its winter around here. It always makes me nostalgic.
How I hate winter.
So here I' am a year later; my pay has been doubled, I'm more settled into my apartment, things are going great at work and on a social front. Except it all still feels off. No matter how much I go out or keep myself busy with it all feels like it doesn't really matter to me.
You see, there is a part of my life that's been lingering perhaps what some may say too long. Although its doesn't really affect my daily life, it does seem to never conclude to anything. So here I' am sometimes wondering if I should press “Continue” or “Game Over” as if a part of my life was a video game. Two simple choices to an indefinitely difficult situation for me. Deal with it for another year hoping for another “high” or give up on something that so much time and effort was put into; something that I personally really care for.
You all may think its better to just to start anew, but its not that easy for me. If I just cut it off like that, would everything that happened mean nothing? What was it all for?
People tell me that “game” isn't worth my time or money, if we are going to use metaphors. However my optimistic look on life tells me it is, even though my realistic view tells me they are right.
Hold on to what you believe in or let go of things that may never be?
Continue or Game Over?
angry
depressed
Dear Santa...
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